I am excited that my friend, Tricia, from Lil Angels Hankies shared my blog yesterday. I've had some new visitors! I hope if you come by you'll click to be one of my followers.
I started this blog to give me a place to share my story of Isaac's and Sweet Pea's short lives. And how they have forever changed me. I hate that other mom's have gone through the pain of using a baby. But I am glad to give them a place to come to andd see they are not alone. And what they are feeling and going through is normal.
I posted this on my FB page and on a support group I am a member of: "when will the pain stop? The answer is never. It will never stop hurting. I'm separated from 2 of my babies. My heart breaks for them. God has them, I know. But my arms long to hold them, my lips long to kiss them, and my eyes long to see them for the 1st time. Time doesn't heal all wounds, and having other babies at home will never take the sting away. Nothing anyone can say or do will ever heal the pain."
It is how I am feeling. Isaac's 1st Birthday in Heaven is less than a month away. I am not sure how I will do that day. I am sure I will cry allot. I am hoping to have a birthday cake for Isaac and balloons to let go for him from all the kids and hubby and I. There won't be allot of people there. We'll do it in our back yard, where we planted Isaac's and Sweet Pea's Tree. I want just our kids, my husband, my mom, and I. I am thinking of asking a very special friend that took me to the hospital when I went into labor if she'll come. I need to talk to Hubby 1st.
Well, I guess since I have more people coming to visit my blog. I will need to start writing more and more often. I will do my best. If you come by, I hope you leave a comment. And I hope you'll become a follower :)
Enjoy,
Christi
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Monday, June 4, 2012
I have a Dream
I have a dream just as Martin Luther King Jr. did. But my dream is a little different. My dream is for the topic of "Miscarriage" not to be taboo.
I am so sick of trying to tiptoe around people or being made like I shouldn't talk about my babies. I have a right to talk about them. Anyone who has lost a baby or babies has a right to talk about them. No matter how far along you were, they will always be your babies.
Having a miscariage is so much more common than most people realize. 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in a miscarriage. That's allot. And do you realize how islocated we feel? We're made to feel like it isn't soomething we should talk about or that people don't want to hear about it. But we need to talk about it. We need to share our story. We need to heal and talking about our story helps.
I am an open book when it comes to my miscarriages. You have questions, and I have answers. I talk about my babies all the time. You ask me how many kids I have, I'll tell you 7. I am Mommy to all of them. I delivered all 7 of them. I have a right to acknogle them all. And I will continue to do it until the day God calls me home.
I have a necklace I wear. It used to be just a marriage charm. But now it has 2 heart charms too. The heart charms say "The Heart Remembers", and on the back of each charm has the name of our babies and the day I deliverd their bodies. I love these charms. I love when someone asks about my charms. Because it gives me another opporunity to talk about my babies.
What I love about sharing my story, is that it gives other mom's the opporunity to share theirs. There are so many people I have meet that have also lost babies. The thing is that unless I shared my story, I would have never known about their losses. They wouldn't have been able to share their story.
Through my pain, I have found so many blessing. One of them is being able to help other mom's feel comfortable to share their babies stories. God has lead me to so many other women that I have come to find out also has lost a baby. He has put me in situations where I am able to share my story and then able to listen to their story. It is awesome to be used by God. I love that God is using my pain for his Glory.
Today was one of those day's. I went by the AAA store to renew our membership. While I was there I was talking to the lady helping me. And then I left while she got some maps done for our trip. I had a couple stores to go to while I waited. I came back about 30 minutes later. She showed me the maps and directions and such. She then asked me about my necklace. I told her about my charms and about Isaac and Sweet Pea. She asked how far along I was with both and what happened. I told her and then made the statement "it is really hard, but so many blessing have come from it". She asked "really, how?" I told her, that I have met so many mom's that I would have never met otherwise. And how it saved my life with finding the blood clotting disorders and so many others.
She then shared her story with me. Yes, she also had a miscarriage. She lost her baby at 4 weeks into the pregnancy. It broke my heart! I asked if she had any other babies, she said no. I told her to keep praying about it and keep asking God for that baby she desires. I told her too, to always remember that she is a MOM! Just because she doesn't have a baby in her arms, she is still a mom. When she conceived that baby. We talked about seeing our babies in Heaven one day. She was so sweet! I told her about the support group that is held close by that I go too. I gave her my name and number and told her I'd love to come with me to the meeting in June.
It was definally a God moment. He had me go at that moment and had that women help me. It is amazing the way God can and will us you if you only allow Him to do so.
I hate that we lost 2 babies. But without that I wouldn't be able to minister to women and share my story and give them the opportunity to share theirs. I also wouldn't be on the mission to make Miscarriage a subject that is NO longer thought of as taboo. It happens. It happens allot. And no one should be made to feel like they can't talk about it and share their pain and hurt. No one should be made to feel or told that they can't include their baby or babies because they are no longer with them.
Your babies are your babies and you should always be to share them!
I'm sorry if this didn't make allot of sense or flow well. I sounded better in my head, lol....
Enjoy,
Christi
I am so sick of trying to tiptoe around people or being made like I shouldn't talk about my babies. I have a right to talk about them. Anyone who has lost a baby or babies has a right to talk about them. No matter how far along you were, they will always be your babies.
Having a miscariage is so much more common than most people realize. 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in a miscarriage. That's allot. And do you realize how islocated we feel? We're made to feel like it isn't soomething we should talk about or that people don't want to hear about it. But we need to talk about it. We need to share our story. We need to heal and talking about our story helps.
I am an open book when it comes to my miscarriages. You have questions, and I have answers. I talk about my babies all the time. You ask me how many kids I have, I'll tell you 7. I am Mommy to all of them. I delivered all 7 of them. I have a right to acknogle them all. And I will continue to do it until the day God calls me home.
I have a necklace I wear. It used to be just a marriage charm. But now it has 2 heart charms too. The heart charms say "The Heart Remembers", and on the back of each charm has the name of our babies and the day I deliverd their bodies. I love these charms. I love when someone asks about my charms. Because it gives me another opporunity to talk about my babies.
What I love about sharing my story, is that it gives other mom's the opporunity to share theirs. There are so many people I have meet that have also lost babies. The thing is that unless I shared my story, I would have never known about their losses. They wouldn't have been able to share their story.
Through my pain, I have found so many blessing. One of them is being able to help other mom's feel comfortable to share their babies stories. God has lead me to so many other women that I have come to find out also has lost a baby. He has put me in situations where I am able to share my story and then able to listen to their story. It is awesome to be used by God. I love that God is using my pain for his Glory.
Today was one of those day's. I went by the AAA store to renew our membership. While I was there I was talking to the lady helping me. And then I left while she got some maps done for our trip. I had a couple stores to go to while I waited. I came back about 30 minutes later. She showed me the maps and directions and such. She then asked me about my necklace. I told her about my charms and about Isaac and Sweet Pea. She asked how far along I was with both and what happened. I told her and then made the statement "it is really hard, but so many blessing have come from it". She asked "really, how?" I told her, that I have met so many mom's that I would have never met otherwise. And how it saved my life with finding the blood clotting disorders and so many others.
She then shared her story with me. Yes, she also had a miscarriage. She lost her baby at 4 weeks into the pregnancy. It broke my heart! I asked if she had any other babies, she said no. I told her to keep praying about it and keep asking God for that baby she desires. I told her too, to always remember that she is a MOM! Just because she doesn't have a baby in her arms, she is still a mom. When she conceived that baby. We talked about seeing our babies in Heaven one day. She was so sweet! I told her about the support group that is held close by that I go too. I gave her my name and number and told her I'd love to come with me to the meeting in June.
It was definally a God moment. He had me go at that moment and had that women help me. It is amazing the way God can and will us you if you only allow Him to do so.
I hate that we lost 2 babies. But without that I wouldn't be able to minister to women and share my story and give them the opportunity to share theirs. I also wouldn't be on the mission to make Miscarriage a subject that is NO longer thought of as taboo. It happens. It happens allot. And no one should be made to feel like they can't talk about it and share their pain and hurt. No one should be made to feel or told that they can't include their baby or babies because they are no longer with them.
Your babies are your babies and you should always be to share them!
I'm sorry if this didn't make allot of sense or flow well. I sounded better in my head, lol....
Enjoy,
Christi
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